My Power is Made Perfect in Weakness

Everyday, I wake up and am amazed at the fact that I’m in Uganda. It still seems like a dream to me. A lot has changed about this place, yet a lot has remained the same. It’s been interesting being here and trying to see if/how God is going to fit me in all of this. My prayer daily is to be completely and one hundred percent open to where the Lord is leading me. 

I spent a lot of my time in South Africa doubting my decision to come here with an open-ended ticket. Satan was really getting in my thoughts and telling me that I wasn’t capable of handling something like this. I was scared coming to Uganda. I spent most of my flight trying to figure out a way to get out of here as fast as I could. The day after I arrived in Uganda, I wrote this in my journal: 

That feeling you get when you are completely humbled by God. When you begin to doubt Him and then He shows you why not to. My time here has been humbling and it’s only been a day and a half. I’ve had some time to sit and reflect on God today in our long four hour care ride. He wants me to open up and give all I have to Him. Don’t miss a single opportunity to serve Him or love His people.

So I’ve been clinging to these verses since I’ve been here, “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10. So, I’m writing now to boast about my weaknesses. I want you to know that when it comes to being here, I’m scared out of my mind. I’ve doubted God more times than I can count. I’ve tried to come up with countless excuses as to why I shouldn’t be here. I don’t think that I’m cut out to be a missionary in Uganda. But I will gladly boast in these weaknesses, because I know God’s power will be made perfect in them. I know that when I am weak, God will make me strong. I want my time here to be a reflection of God’s power and His might. Because without Him, I am nothing.